Updates (again).

Happy May! Since it's been almost a month since my last post (sorry) I think this is long overdue. I've had a few drafts since then but nothing has felt "right." 

So I hope this one works out. 

I've had a ton on my mind lately, and none of it seems fit for a blog post. Why is it that the more thoughts that exist in your head, the stronger the writer's block gets? This is just another update post, since I'm fresh out of ideas. Unless you've got one, then please, share.

In the past month, I've had visits from great friends, gone out with great people, met new people, ran a 5K (and my team won!), made huge progress toward my Life After AmeriCorps plans, and applied for some jobs. We've been working overtime at the Deployment Branch, thanks to the tornadoes and other storms that swept through the south, in addition to presentations and meetings. It's been insanely busy! It's been hard to plan our days, which is really hard on me and takes it's toll. Thankfully I have a great team and they're really understanding and accommodating to the changes, which helps me act the same way. They never get anxious and just go with the flow, which has had a positive impact on my own attitude. I'm such a planner. I like everything laid out step by step, and when someone says "you need to expect change" I'm like, "Yeah I did expect that, see, here's plan B in case that happens and plan B.1 and B.2 in case of X, Y, or Z. Then we move to Plan C, C.1, D..." I'm usually convinced I can plan or prepare for any situation, and thanks to this program I've been able to take a few steps away from that. 

As we move into May and start thinking about closing out this year, I keep thinking about the ways I've changed and the things I've learned in this program, and I think about the ways my team members have grown and I hope that I had a positive impact on them. I don't know if I can summarize the ways I've changed or lessons I've learned, I think I'm just going to have to live my life and slowly reflect on my differences in attitude and behavior from pre- to post-AmeriCorps life. I'm nervous to leave this year of service, but I'm also very, very excited. I'll try to keep you updated on the changes :)